“One is happy once one knows the necessary ingredients of happiness: simple tastes, a certain degree of courage, self denial to a point, love of work, and above all, a clear conscience.”— George Sand (via realizes)
“In time, the hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let it go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong, I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them for fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn’t ever want to lose that.”— Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook)
It’s not every day, if at all, that you find someone who wants you. And I mean, really want you. I want you not only on my good days, but your bad ones as well. I am willing to put up with your silence, random moods, and your crazy emotions. I accept your mistakes and indecision’s, and love you for them anyways. You keep every promise that you make to me. You don’t run away when things get difficult, and you stick around to make sure I’m okay, even when you’re the one doing the hurting. And when you attempt to push you away, I will never let you do so. I will manage to get you to talk to me, and I will never make you feel like you mess everything up if I do talk to me. I will make you understand that I am not going to go anywhere when you get insecure. That I am always here, and that I want you, and only you.
When I tell you that you’re perfect, it doesn’t mean that I don’t think you make mistakes. It also doesn’t mean that you don’t have your own personal flaws either. When I say that, it means regardless of your flaws and no matter how many mistakes you make, I love you entirely based on who you are. Once I prefer my girls like jewelry. Soft and innocent. You are not like jewelry though. Not even close. The beauty of yours is foreign. You are one of a kind. You crawled inside me and got into my veins. You made your home in my darkest corners within me. You have this ability to make me feel worth something. Like, for once what I have to offer is good enough for someone. You have the capability to make me feel loved, and adored. I’ve never had that. You got around, under, and inside the confines of the walls that I built so heavily around my heart. You broke away every resistance that I held onto. You’ve been showing me day in and day out that you’re not going anywhere. And I can only hope that in return, you understand that I’m not going anywhere, either.
Where there’s constantly an equal amount of love and adoration. It’s never only one caring, but two. I’ve always been the one to love more. To care the longest. To try the hardest. To fall in first. Never have I had someone who’s loved me back with the same burning intensity in which I feel for them. I am fond of our moments. When you forget that I’m looking at you. I enjoy those moments where I see you being yourself. Whenever you notice yourself slowly going into your own world and I am just staring at you as always being captivated by you. Then you go doing the most the most cutest thing ever, you cover your face and look away as you giggle sheepish. That giggle had me from the start. You know you had me from the start. I can’t open my heart any wider. It’s stuffed full of every thought of you. Your own name is craved into my heart for yours to keep. I am too deep. To deep with every thing we’ve hoped and dreamt of. I know it’s the same with you, I don’t have to ask. Just one look gives it all. Your eyes glisten with a light that is more shinier than any star I have seen and it gives me hope for us to last. I adore the way you listen to your music. Your music makes you glisten with joy. You are radiant as the sun and energy is coursing through you when you have the tine in you bursting in happiness. I love seeing you happy like this, to know you are content and filled with joy. I want to always make you feel this way.
There are no words to express how I feel about you. I constantly search for the words, and they all seem less than how I truly feel. You’re my life. I have never steered away from any words that have crept out of your mouth even when it’s cold and bitter. But I do enjoy and smile every time you give me a silly phrase or love song lyric. It fills my heart with happiness because inside of you, you’re actually mushy. But you rarely show it. Not that you aren’t hardcore. But you live for cute things. I do see that every part of me affects you, just as every part of you, effects me. You are my home. I hope you do know when I met you, my life could not have been in a worse state. I swear, everything was so shitty. Everyday I just grew more heartbroken, I went through a lot of pain. My heart had been broken too many times to count and nothing seemed worth it anymore. I just gave up… on everyone and everything, then you came along. I love you…I will try to express that to you with every word that leaves my mouth and every lyric written in my notebook for you to never think twice.
I should love you because of who you are. What’s inside of you. And what’s inside of you? That should be why I want you. I should need you because you become apart of me. A part in which I confide in. A part that becomes a sense of comfort, understanding, and encouragement. A support system. By far the most important one. And that’s the way it’s become. I’ve been slowly learning you from the inside out. I love every piece of you in which you have given me the opportunity to learn. Those pieces in which you might not be comfortable with. Pieces you’ve shared with others, and pieces you have only shared with me. I love the pieces of you that you have yet to discover. I love the pieces of yourself in which you do not. Those pieces of yourself that you do like, I love.I know when I look at you, all I see is perfection. From your hair to your mouth to your skin, hands or scars, you are beautiful. And everyday I will remind you. You are my definition of perfect. And you have to hush those beautiful little lips of yours and accept how truly beautiful you are to me. You are the most beautiful piece of work I have ever seen. I am captivated with everything that is you. You understand the importance and meanings of all the little things. You notice all of those little things. You begin to do things for that person that you’ve never done before. Because for once, you want to try. You want to better yourself for this person, and give them everything that you’ve never recieved or given before. You want to love them, and you do; truly, fiercly, and passionately. I feel like that’s the way this works. You have your moves, your plays, your tricks, and secrets. But you will have your endgame. And you are my endgame.I know this, because I want you entirely. I want you and all of you. I want you happy, and I want to give you the world. I want to try for you, to be better for you. To give you things, and do things for you that I never would have thought about doing for anyone else. I can’t explain it, but I just know that right now, you’re it for me. Each day I fall more in love with you. As I try to figure how I fell in love with hands that are foreign to me, You stare into my eyes and wonder the same thing. How you could fall for a girl you know only by words. I don’t really knew how I had you, but I think I knew from the first day when I made you laugh and you looked at me in a way to be able to leave me breathless.
Oddly, I never had a girl of my dreams. I never envisioned a perfect girl. I knew she would come along someday…But know this love I have for you - it’s really hard to describe, yet real easy to feel. I understand that receiving love, and loving someone in return is terrifying. In fact, I was so terrified of falling in love. I was afraid of the whole concept. Love. It seemed impossible for someone like I to find a companion.I think you should also know I was crying reading that. And crying writing this. Because I want the girl I chose to love… To choose me. But you came along, and captured my heart…You changed me into a better person. I’m glad to have met you. I am fond to know about your music, your interest, your passion, your clothing, and the books you love to read, because it allows me to learn more about you. Your little secrets and hidden meanings, they’re my favorite. Well, I am lying… Everything about you is my favorite. There’s not a thing I despise.
I do know you’re lonely. I see it in your eyes. You don’t have to tell me, because I know. I’m lonely too. And together, we don’t do too bad. Yes our habits have grown on each other, immensely. I nevered learned to love. I never learned how to love you. Maybe that’s why we’re struggling. You were new to me. Like an entire new world I had to try and understand. But nothing ever felt more right. You are everything I’ve been waiting for in this life. No matter how imperfect you think you are, you are perfect for me. In every, single, possible way. I don’t want just want you on your good days, I want you on your bad days. I want your habits, your flaws, your insecurities, and your secrets. I want you, in every way. I want to hold you when you are crying because you are over sensitive about everything, but always know you are my mess. That you are my complicated, emotional person. I want you to know I want all of you, baggage and all. Still absolutely perfect to me as always. And I don’t care if our lives don’t match up. We can fix that. And we have. We loved with our hearts and connected in ways people only dream to. We are together and completely inseparable. I am yours. And you are mine. I’ll never leave you. I’ll stand by you. You won’t have to go through anything alone. Whatever troubles you? I’ll be there as you go through it all. I won’t willingly walk away from you. I promise you that I will stand here and fight for my spot in your life and in your heart. You’re the love of my life and even if forever was the only time choice to spend with you, it’s definitely still not long enough. I couldn’t ask for anything better but to marry my perfect girl. You are the light of my life. You are my home. You are my future. It’s simple: I’m in love with you. I’m in love with everything you are, everything you have been, and everything you will be. And I’ll continue to love you more as the days continue to go by, and as I continue to learn you from the inside and out. And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.
“The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them.”—Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Matters (via ridingsidesaddle)
“There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.”— Laurell K. Hamilton (via realizes)